Of course, my work computer is a peice of junk and deleted my entire post before I could save it. Drats. Anyways, I'll start over, and try to remember most everything I said.
Don't hate me for not updating in forever, this girl lives an extremely busy life by choice. I've been journaling lately, scratch that, I've been trying to journal lately. It's much harder than one would think. It seemed so easy in my head 'oh, just sit down for a little bit each day and write down your thoughts and feelings.' Yeah, if you don't know, it doesn't actually happen like that. By the time I actually get a chance to sit down and journal, I'm too tired and I just sleep instead. So, needless to say, it's not going too wel so far, but I'm not giving up. I'm writing it all down and then typing it because when I write, my feelings and emotions actually leave my body and are transfered into the ink. It's quite freeing actually. Typing just doesn't have the same effect. What a whirlwind of a week. So much seems to have flown by me and I hardly got a glimpse of it. I've been going through this phase where I'm in 'ultra freak out mode' about graduation/life in general. Is this what a quater life crisis feels like? If not, I don't ever want to experience that, this is enough, thank you very much. So, I'll admit to the stereotype before I begin: I'm a woman (O.K. maybe more like a girl but that's besides the point) so I enjoy blabbing and making very little sense.
The following paragraphs are me attempting to be organized. A few things going on in my life that I'd like to elaborate on; my stressful life, school, ultimate, love, and my future.
I most likely won't get around to all of them in this post (I don't want to bore you to death), so I'll save some for the next update, which will be 235908234 times sooner than the last update. First things first, my stressful life. I think I bit off a tad more than I can chew. You know, you're on a first date with someone and you're at dinner. Eating and talking, just having a grand time. You take a bite of chicken, not looking at it, and you end up feeling like you have an entire chicken leg in your mouth. Yeah, you know the feeling, admit it. You're thinking 'crap, do I chew this honking peice of chicken and loko like a total moron/ risk the chance of chocking on it or something equally as ridiculous? OR do I what? Spit it out? Go to the bathroom and flush it down the toliet? First impression: FAIL.' Personally, no choice is a good choice in this situation. So, anyways, that's how I feel right about now,
except take out the chicken and replace it with life. I have so much going on but I can't really lessen my load because everything I'm doing is 'important' or so the world seems to think. 1) I'm in school to get a degree to eventually, if I'm lucky, land a good career. 2) I'm working part-time so I can have a tiny bit of money and try (although failing miserably) to save as much as possible. I have $100 automatically put into my savings but, let's be real, $27 is pretty hard to live on for 2 weeks. 3) I'm also the captain of the Women's Ultimate frisbee team, the one thing I'm actually enjoying currently. Our website. It requires all of my spar etime which leaves zero time for 4) homework, let alone 5) the serious relationship I'm in. And oh ya I'm also supposed to be 6) finding a job?! Oh please, only so much this girl can do at one time.
I'm sure you've had enough of my rants and raves for one day, check back next week and I'll talk about the other 4 things in my life. It's safe to say that I'll probably just stick with one topic per blog. Until next week, read the website for my ultimate team! We're going to Lowell, Indiana this weekend for our last tournament of the season! Thanks for not forgetting about me.
To all my Faithful Readers:
Here is a small peek inside my brain. Enjoy.