There are a few things that I'm most excited about.
1. My sister-in-law giving birth to my little nephew. I am so excited to be an Aunt, aside from that, I'm excited to see my brother's little family grow. He will make the most hilarious father, I can't wait to see it. Amanda will make a wonderful mommy! I'm so happy that I will be home over the summer so I can watch little peanut while he grows in during his first few months of life. 2. I'm beyond excited to get back on track. During the past few months I sort of feel like I've lost myself. Like I said in an earlier blog, I have issues with letting go and not being in control. I feel that this has a lot to do with my dad's death but I can't be making excuses. The reason that I feel this way is because my dad was sick and I could not do a single thing about it, I just had to watch his health fail. After he passed I have been doing anything and everything in my power to make sure everything goes the way that it should because I never want to feel that helpless again. BUT, this has slowly been eating away at my relationship with my boyfriend. All this time I've been thinking that I'm protecting him, and making sure everything goes according to plan, when in reality, I've been pushing him a way little by little. I need to get back to the start, back to me, back to just living, instead of worrying about every little thing. People mess up, mistakes are made, I can't control everything. That's God's job. 3. Lastly, I'm excited to get out of college and get on with my life. I've loved college, it's been fun! But I'm ready for it to be over with. I have been placed on this Earth to help people in whatever way possible, not sit in a classroom and learn pretty much nothing.
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Rhea Roller
3/20/2011 02:21:48 pm
First off, you are inspiring, amazing, and such and incredible person inside and out! Life is too short for me to keep these thoughts to myself so I feel like I need to tell you this as much as possible. I know I'm young but I think you are extremely mature in your thinking for your age. You are too wise for your own good. haha :) Reading your answer to today's question made me feel the need to let you know all of this. You are a hero to so many of us for your drive to make people feel loved and for the way you view the world. I love you girl!
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Johnny
3/21/2011 12:35:58 am
GIRL,
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