There are a few things that I'm most excited about.
1. My sister-in-law giving birth to my little nephew. I am so excited
to be an Aunt, aside from that, I'm excited to see my brother's little
family grow. He will make the most hilarious father, I can't wait to see it.
Amanda will make a wonderful mommy! I'm so happy that I will be home
over the summer so I can watch little peanut while he grows in during
his first few months of life.
2. I'm beyond excited to get back on track. During the past few months
I sort of feel like I've lost myself. Like I said in an earlier blog,
I have issues with letting go and not being in control. I feel that this
has a lot to do with my dad's death but I can't be making excuses. The
reason that I feel this way is because my dad was sick and I could not
do a single thing about it, I just had to watch his health fail. After
he passed I have been doing anything and everything in my power to make
sure everything goes the way that it should because I never want to
feel that helpless again. BUT, this has slowly been eating away at my
relationship with my boyfriend. All this time I've been thinking that
I'm protecting him, and making sure everything goes according to plan,
when in reality, I've been pushing him a way little by little.
I need to get back to the start, back to me, back to just living, instead
of worrying about every little thing. People mess up, mistakes are made,
I can't control everything.
That's God's job.
3. Lastly, I'm excited to get out of college and get on with my life.
I've loved college, it's been fun! But I'm ready for it to be over with.
I have been placed on this Earth to help people in whatever way possible,
not sit in a classroom and learn pretty much nothing.
To all my Faithful Readers:
Here is a small peek inside my brain. Enjoy.