Ah my mother. What an amazing woman. Seriously, the most amazing woman I've ever met. A few words that I can use to describe my mom are resilient strong determined fighter extremely caring I always tell my friends that I could make a book about my mom. She has been through so much and still ended up coming out on top. Out of those words I listed earlier, determination would be the thing I admire most about my momma. I don't want to go into all the details and reveal the secrets of my mom's life but she's seen it all. Her family didn't have a lot of money, dad was never around, lots of brothers and sisters, dropped out of school and so many other things! She didn't let it get her down. She overcame so many hurdles and I'd say she finished in first place. If I was her I wouldn't have made it anywhere. I would have given up a long time ago and settled for the easy way out. I love you mom, so much. And onto my father.
I don't even have words to describe him actually. There was just a presence when he walked in the room. Once you saw his face you automatically felt calm and knew that everything would be ok. Once you heard his laugh, oh man, there was not a worry in the world that could ruin your day after that. His love and smile was like a virus! The thing I admire most about my father was the way he lived his life. Even before he knew he wouldn't be on Earth much longer, he lived every day in the moment, no regrets. My dad was such a unique individual and I hope to one day be a fourth the person that he was. I miss you dad.
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The Middle Place
by Kelly Corrigan Video ^^ This video is about the author and her family ^^ Where to begin with this book? Funny, sad, heart-warming, inspiring. This book is about family and love and everything in between, including cancer. Of course, you all know why this book has such a big place in my heart with my dad passing from cancer and all. But anyone can sit down and read this book and seriously have a life changing moment, even if you've never been affected by cancer. I can't stress enough how amazing this book is. I'm having a hard time writing this blog because there really aren't words to describe this book. As I sit here crying, just thinking about how wonderful this book is, I ask that you go rent it from the library, or buy yourself a copy because I'm sure you'll read it more than once or want to pass it on to a friend. But before you run out to Barnes and Noble to get a copy, donate to my friend Laura Merz. She is trying to raise $500 for a charity called Orphan Relief Fund. This is her birthday wish (May 8th). Anyone who can set aside their special day and make it about someone else is truly an amazing person. She will be even spending her birthday in Liberia with the children that are involved with this charity. It's just a few bucks. Yes Indiana, it IS snowing. I know it's rough. But there are many other things to fret about. I love you all. I hope with all the hope in my heart that you enjoy The Middle Place How about you tell me.
Just comment anonymously and let me know because honestly, I have no idea how I would be remembered. I would like to think good things, but who really knows, until you're actually gone. And then it's too late. A few words I would wish someone would remember me by: caring loving adventurer fun compassionate trusting happy wild leader Laughter.
Haven't you ever heard a big, hardy, completely sincere laugh? It's one of the best sounds a person can hear, in my opinion. How can hearing a laugh not make you laugh or smile yourself? My favorite laughs are the laughs that are funnier than the actual thing that person is laughing about. Oh man, those get me. I just lose it, I can't stop laughing at that person's laugh, and it's ok because they think you're laughing at the thing that initially made them laugh. Not true buddy, not true. And a child, doesn't it just warm your heart when you hear a little kid laugh? It's just so sweet and the sound makes my heart feel all warm and fuzzy (lame, I know). I also love to hear people crack up and lose control of their laugh. Those are the ones that almost make me cry. Yes, hearing someone laugh makes me want to cry sometimes. Some people keep their laughs toned down, I'm not exactly sure why, this is something I've never done. But when they hear something completely hilarious/unexpected they don't have time to control their laugh and I love it. Pure and complete happiness. Laughter. Well, this weekend will be filled with flying discs and
running miles upon miles, and I can't wait. We have our first tournament of the season on Saturday. We're headed to FlavaFest in Richmond, Indiana. It's just a one day tournament with only a few teams. I'm alright with that though, better than nothing. :) I do have to leave early though, but for something even better than ultimate, my sister-in-laws baby shower! I'm so excited! After her baby shower Hannah (a teammate and friend of mine) and I are headed to Naperville, Illinois for our men's team tournament. They're going to be playing in the Chicago Invite. Of course, they're ranked first. :D I love watching these guys play, even if it will be in the snow. Hannah and I are going to be couch surfing, a guy named Darien and his wife (nameless apparently) are hosting us. We are excited, duh. Oh, I got a fish, if I didn't tell you earlier. His name is Shelton. So, that's a just a little update about what's coming up in my life. Not to interesting eh? Well, here is something interesting, I'm almost 21. BOOM. Should be an interesting time since, uhh, I don't drink. haha. Keep smiling people, you're all so beautiful. <3 Oh my goodness, just about everything. This past week was a major
struggle for me (this week is going to be one too, but for other reasons). Brian (my boyfriend) and I weren't really on the same page all week. Sigh. Lots of things happened but most of the things that happened could have been prevented if I wasn't such a dumb butt. I don't want to get into all the details because that's a little private. Even though this past week has had its ups and downs (mainly downs) I did gain a lot from it. So maybe I wouldn't want to change too many things. haha. Some days these questions are so hard to answer. I guess the one thing I would have changed about this week isn't what actually happened but how I responded to the happenings. But, as we all know, we can't go back in time and change things. So maybe this time around I'll remember to act differently so I don't have to blog about it again. :) The past is the past and it's time to move forward now. One little tad of advice that's been helping me lately: "I vow to let go of all worries and anxiety in order to be light and free." -Thich Nhat Hanh Letting Go ^^ This is one of my all time favorite websites, they send me a little blog every day and it always seems to fit perfectly. This one I got last week. ^^ There are a few things that I'm most excited about.
1. My sister-in-law giving birth to my little nephew. I am so excited to be an Aunt, aside from that, I'm excited to see my brother's little family grow. He will make the most hilarious father, I can't wait to see it. Amanda will make a wonderful mommy! I'm so happy that I will be home over the summer so I can watch little peanut while he grows in during his first few months of life. 2. I'm beyond excited to get back on track. During the past few months I sort of feel like I've lost myself. Like I said in an earlier blog, I have issues with letting go and not being in control. I feel that this has a lot to do with my dad's death but I can't be making excuses. The reason that I feel this way is because my dad was sick and I could not do a single thing about it, I just had to watch his health fail. After he passed I have been doing anything and everything in my power to make sure everything goes the way that it should because I never want to feel that helpless again. BUT, this has slowly been eating away at my relationship with my boyfriend. All this time I've been thinking that I'm protecting him, and making sure everything goes according to plan, when in reality, I've been pushing him a way little by little. I need to get back to the start, back to me, back to just living, instead of worrying about every little thing. People mess up, mistakes are made, I can't control everything. That's God's job. 3. Lastly, I'm excited to get out of college and get on with my life. I've loved college, it's been fun! But I'm ready for it to be over with. I have been placed on this Earth to help people in whatever way possible, not sit in a classroom and learn pretty much nothing. We are all a little weird and life's a little weird,
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. I love you mom. Gives Me Hope
There isn't too much to say about this. I randomly found this site and then sat there for an hour reading stores. Each one game the goosebumps or brought me to tears. It makes you appreciate the little things in life and also reminds you that not everyone is some angry, mean, bad person. :) Take a look, you'll spend your whole day reading these little stories. Make sure when you're done reading, you do something that gives someone out there hope. These are just a few other sits I've found. 101 Short Stories Quotes I know that this isn't a really lengthy post but these websites speak for themselves, there is nothing that I can say that will compare to the feeling that some of these stories bring. Enjoy! I leave for Chicago with Brian tomorrow! Stay safe for those of you who are on spring break! My first instinct was 'HA, lose all the memories of my dad? Yeah right.'
But then I thought about it. Yeah, that would completely suck to lose the only thing left I have of my dad, memories. You can't keep living in the past though, you can't change it, you can't stop it, you can't even pause it. The only thing you can do is move on from it. To live life to the fullest every day is what we are put here to do. Help others, smile, hug, laugh often, and LOVE. Doing things creates memories, memories that will forever change your life. If you have lost a loved one, don't sit around and constantly think about them in sad ways, LIVE FOR THEM. Go out and change the world, because, honestly, you can. So, would you keep your old memories, or dare to create new ones? |
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