Ah my mother. What an amazing woman.
Seriously, the most amazing woman I've ever met.
A few words that I can use to describe my mom are
I always tell my friends that I could make a book about my mom.
She has been through so much and still ended up coming out on top.
Out of those words I listed earlier, determination would be the
thing I admire most about my momma. I don't want to go into all
the details and reveal the secrets of my mom's life but
she's seen it all. Her family didn't have a lot of money,
dad was never around, lots of brothers and sisters, dropped
out of school and so many other things! She didn't let it
get her down. She overcame so many hurdles and I'd say she
finished in first place. If I was her I wouldn't have
made it anywhere. I would have given up a long time ago
and settled for the easy way out.
I love you mom, so much.
And onto my father.
I don't even have words to describe him actually.
There was just a presence when he walked in the room.
Once you saw his face you automatically felt calm and knew that
everything would be ok. Once you heard his laugh, oh man, there
was not a worry in the world that could ruin your day after that.
His love and smile was like a virus!
The thing I admire most about my father was the way he lived his life.
Even before he knew he wouldn't be on Earth much longer, he lived
every day in the moment, no regrets.
My dad was such a unique individual and I hope to one day
be a fourth the person that he was.
I miss you dad.
The Middle Place
by Kelly Corrigan
^^ This video is about the author and her family ^^
Where to begin with this book?
Funny, sad, heart-warming, inspiring.
This book is about family and love and everything in between,
Of course, you all know why this book has such a big place in
my heart with my dad passing from cancer and all.
But anyone can sit down and read this book and seriously
have a life changing moment, even if you've never been
affected by cancer.
I can't stress enough how amazing this book is.
I'm having a hard time writing this blog because there
really aren't words to describe this book.
As I sit here crying, just thinking about how wonderful this book
is, I ask that you go rent it from the library, or
buy yourself a copy because I'm sure you'll read it more
than once or want to pass it on to a friend.
But before you run out to Barnes and Noble to get a copy,
donate to my friend Laura Merz.
She is trying to raise $500 for a charity called Orphan
Relief Fund. This is her birthday wish (May 8th).
Anyone who can set aside their special day and make it about
someone else is truly an amazing person.
She will be even spending her birthday in Liberia
with the children that are involved with this charity.
It's just a few bucks.
Yes Indiana, it IS snowing.
I know it's rough.
But there are many other things to fret about.
I love you all.
I hope with all the hope in my heart that you enjoy
The Middle Place
How about you tell me.
Just comment anonymously and let me know
because honestly, I have no idea how I would be remembered.
I would like to think good things, but who really knows,
until you're actually gone.
And then it's too late.
A few words I would wish someone would remember me by:
Haven't you ever heard a big, hardy, completely sincere laugh?
It's one of the best sounds a person can hear, in my opinion.
How can hearing a laugh not make you laugh or smile yourself?
My favorite laughs are the laughs that are funnier than the actual
thing that person is laughing about. Oh man, those get me.
I just lose it, I can't stop laughing at that person's laugh, and
it's ok because they think you're laughing at the thing that initially made
them laugh. Not true buddy, not true.
And a child, doesn't it just warm your heart when you hear
a little kid laugh? It's just so sweet and the sound makes my
heart feel all warm and fuzzy (lame, I know).
I also love to hear people crack up and lose control of their laugh.
Those are the ones that almost make me cry.
Yes, hearing someone laugh makes me want to cry sometimes.
Some people keep their laughs toned down, I'm not exactly sure why,
this is something I've never done.
But when they hear something completely hilarious/unexpected
they don't have time to control their laugh and I love it.
Pure and complete happiness.
Well, this weekend will be filled with flying discs and
running miles upon miles, and I can't wait. We have our first
tournament of the season on Saturday. We're headed to FlavaFest in
Richmond, Indiana. It's just a one day tournament with only a few
teams. I'm alright with that though, better than nothing. :)
I do have to leave early though, but for something even better than
ultimate, my sister-in-laws baby shower! I'm so excited!
After her baby shower Hannah (a teammate and friend of mine) and I
are headed to Naperville, Illinois for our men's team tournament.
They're going to be playing in the Chicago Invite.
Of course, they're ranked first. :D I love watching these guys play, even
if it will be in the snow. Hannah and I are going to be
couch surfing, a guy named Darien and his wife (nameless apparently)
are hosting us. We are excited, duh.
Oh, I got a fish, if I didn't tell you earlier.
His name is Shelton.
So, that's a just a little update about what's coming up in my life.
Not to interesting eh? Well, here is something interesting,
I'm almost 21.
Should be an interesting time since, uhh, I don't drink.
Keep smiling people, you're all so beautiful.
Oh my goodness, just about everything. This past week was a major
struggle for me (this week is going to be one too, but for other reasons).
Brian (my boyfriend) and I weren't really on the same page all week.
Sigh. Lots of things happened but most of the things that happened
could have been prevented if I wasn't such a dumb butt.
I don't want to get into all the details because that's a little
Even though this past week has had its ups and downs (mainly downs) I did
gain a lot from it. So maybe I wouldn't want to change too many things.
haha. Some days these questions are so hard to answer.
I guess the one thing I would have changed about this week isn't what
actually happened but how I responded to the happenings.
But, as we all know, we can't go back in time and change things.
So maybe this time around I'll remember to act differently so I don't
have to blog about it again. :)
The past is the past and it's time to move forward now.
One little tad of advice that's been helping me lately:
"I vow to let go of all worries and anxiety in order to be light and free." -Thich Nhat Hanh
^^ This is one of my all time favorite websites, they send me a little
blog every day and it always seems to fit perfectly. This one I got
last week. ^^
There are a few things that I'm most excited about.
1. My sister-in-law giving birth to my little nephew. I am so excited
to be an Aunt, aside from that, I'm excited to see my brother's little
family grow. He will make the most hilarious father, I can't wait to see it.
Amanda will make a wonderful mommy! I'm so happy that I will be home
over the summer so I can watch little peanut while he grows in during
his first few months of life.
2. I'm beyond excited to get back on track. During the past few months
I sort of feel like I've lost myself. Like I said in an earlier blog,
I have issues with letting go and not being in control. I feel that this
has a lot to do with my dad's death but I can't be making excuses. The
reason that I feel this way is because my dad was sick and I could not
do a single thing about it, I just had to watch his health fail. After
he passed I have been doing anything and everything in my power to make
sure everything goes the way that it should because I never want to
feel that helpless again. BUT, this has slowly been eating away at my
relationship with my boyfriend. All this time I've been thinking that
I'm protecting him, and making sure everything goes according to plan,
when in reality, I've been pushing him a way little by little.
I need to get back to the start, back to me, back to just living, instead
of worrying about every little thing. People mess up, mistakes are made,
I can't control everything.
That's God's job.
3. Lastly, I'm excited to get out of college and get on with my life.
I've loved college, it's been fun! But I'm ready for it to be over with.
I have been placed on this Earth to help people in whatever way possible,
not sit in a classroom and learn pretty much nothing.
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird,
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
I love you mom.
Gives Me Hope
There isn't too much to say about this.
I randomly found this site and then sat there for an hour
reading stores. Each one game the goosebumps or brought me
to tears. It makes you appreciate the little things
in life and also reminds you that not everyone is some
angry, mean, bad person. :) Take a look, you'll spend your
whole day reading these little stories.
Make sure when you're done reading, you do something that
gives someone out there hope.
These are just a few other sits I've found.
101 Short Stories
I know that this isn't a really lengthy post but these websites
speak for themselves, there is nothing that I can say that will
compare to the feeling that some of these stories bring.
I leave for Chicago with Brian tomorrow!
Stay safe for those of you who are on spring break!
My first instinct was 'HA, lose all the memories of my dad? Yeah right.'
But then I thought about it. Yeah, that would completely suck
to lose the only thing left I have of my dad, memories.
You can't keep living in the past though, you can't change it,
you can't stop it, you can't even pause it.
The only thing you can do is move on from it.
To live life to the fullest every day is what we are put here to do.
Help others, smile, hug, laugh often, and LOVE.
Doing things creates memories, memories that will forever
change your life. If you have lost a loved one, don't sit around
and constantly think about them in sad ways, LIVE FOR THEM.
Go out and change the world, because, honestly, you can.
So, would you keep your old memories, or dare to create new ones?
To all my Faithful Readers:
Here is a small peek inside my brain. Enjoy.